I'm unemployed. I have no motivation. No strength to get out in the real world and be ambitious. I regret and hate myself for it. I wish i could get out and make something of my life but it feels like such a heavy load to do. It feels like im literally laying down and rotting til my death. I dont care to do things that are "fun" either. I just feel like laying in bed alone all day. I barely go out in the world, in the sunlight. Life has worn me down and beat me up. Thats why i've been like this the past few years. Im in my 20s btw.