Having looked at your other questions, I've figured out the answer. Because you're on drugs, that's why.
And if you're not on drugs, you really really need to be. I'm not talking about any of this amateur night crap like weed or meth, I'm talking the good stuff. The stuff they keep at the very back of the top shelf at the pharmacy, with the big red warning labels on it.
Seriously, take your medication.